Bye Bye Blog. :)

Hey ppl, I'm going to quit blogging. :)


It consumes too much of my time and yes, health as well, coz I always stay up late to wait for the pics to upload.
I need the time to do a lot more important things right now.

Maybe I'll blog again someday in the future, but not sure when. I've decided to focus on my violin and studies now. It's a huge pressure to me nobody can understand.

So yea, I gonna miss writing and sharing here.



I'll only update on my FB I guess. :D
Ciao ppl!

:DDDDDDDD

Okay la. Let's talk about something happy! :D
I gonna use all the smileys in this post. Hahaha! XDDDDDDDD

Let me see... I will eat lots of sweet stuff 2mr! Ice cream or cake. And I'll work hard on my violin, and this time, let my fingers bleed. LOL! ^_____________^
What else? I will figure things out.
Maybe walk for the whole day alone in Shanghai! That gonna take my mind off things. :) Coz I'll be too worried about my safety to care about anything else. The traffic in Shanghai is scary! And all the drivers are all professional F1 speed drivers! They never follow the traffic light btw. XDDD

And Miki'll be so dead, coz I'll talk to her all day about all kinds of crap until she gets tired of me. :DDD

I just want you to know I'm fine. And I WILL be fine.

My way to release my pain is to act the other way. :D I'll look even more happier than usual, and be more chatty, and smile more! ^____^


Sometimes I hope there'll be time difference between Malaysia and China, coz nobody's online now! Hmph~~~

I have to force myself to off now! Or else my teacher will get furious with me tomorrow. I owe him scales and Paganini!

HELL, I HATE thirds, sixths, octaves and tenths. They're killing my fingers.


Good night! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

The Floor is Creaking.

I can't stand it anymore, so I get out of bed and online at such ungodly hour.
Very shitty, my room's floor creaks and squeaks every time I walk, sorry Miki if I wake you up, pls continue sleeping.

I've always avoid being emotional in my blog, coz it's never my diary, just my journal. So you can just see the carefree and laugh-all-day me here.
There's a lot of ppl who ask me, "Will you ever be sad? Coz you're so happy all the time!"
Well, I just smile. I'm a human being, what do you think?

One thing about writing about your feelings in the blog is a way to release yourself, but it doesn't really work for me. Nobody can really understand what I feel except myself. All they read and see in the blog are just words for them, emo words, literally.



Shit, my eyes are so red and swollen now, the eye mask I have applied this morning is soooo totally wasted. Aha.
I just realise if I don't use smileys at all in a post, then I'm really NOT FEELING OKAY.
I've always been a smiley-queen. Right, Ebby?


I don't even feel like telling anyone about it, coz I know deep down, nobody can truly emphatize it.
I, for once, want to deal with it alone.
I'm a big girl now, don't I?

I'm not going to die even if I feel like dying, right? So I will cope with it, it's not the matter of can or cannot, I just have to, for me or anyone.
I, for once, don't want anyone to care for me, I'll stand on my own two feet and get through this.
Khor Wen Xi, you can do it!




ps: Yes, I can do it.



I will keep smiling, so don't worry about me. :)