The Floor is Creaking.

I can't stand it anymore, so I get out of bed and online at such ungodly hour.
Very shitty, my room's floor creaks and squeaks every time I walk, sorry Miki if I wake you up, pls continue sleeping.

I've always avoid being emotional in my blog, coz it's never my diary, just my journal. So you can just see the carefree and laugh-all-day me here.
There's a lot of ppl who ask me, "Will you ever be sad? Coz you're so happy all the time!"
Well, I just smile. I'm a human being, what do you think?

One thing about writing about your feelings in the blog is a way to release yourself, but it doesn't really work for me. Nobody can really understand what I feel except myself. All they read and see in the blog are just words for them, emo words, literally.



Shit, my eyes are so red and swollen now, the eye mask I have applied this morning is soooo totally wasted. Aha.
I just realise if I don't use smileys at all in a post, then I'm really NOT FEELING OKAY.
I've always been a smiley-queen. Right, Ebby?


I don't even feel like telling anyone about it, coz I know deep down, nobody can truly emphatize it.
I, for once, want to deal with it alone.
I'm a big girl now, don't I?

I'm not going to die even if I feel like dying, right? So I will cope with it, it's not the matter of can or cannot, I just have to, for me or anyone.
I, for once, don't want anyone to care for me, I'll stand on my own two feet and get through this.
Khor Wen Xi, you can do it!




ps: Yes, I can do it.



I will keep smiling, so don't worry about me. :)