Move On.

I have been in this unhealthy cycle for so long without realising it.

Having a talk with Kat today was like a smack in the head.

There are a lot of things that are already so clear but I just subconsciously reject to admit it, instead I find another way to coax myself.

I have always been thinking I'm not good enough, I should be a better gf, things like that, but now I realise it's all nonsense.


Someone who really loves you, will love you more than himself.

Someone who really loves you, will never hurt you, even for a second.

Someone who really loves you, will accept you as who you are, and not going to ask for more. You'll be beautiful to him even when you lost your arms and legs.

Someone who really loves you, will treat and love you like a family when the romance is gone.

And someone who really loves you, will never threaten you.




I always thought love is that way:
There'll be quarrels, definitely. We should always tolerate one another and solve problems together. If you really love someone, you should always bear with him or apologise to him.


However I'm so so wrong. I always apologise even when I'm not wrong, even when I'm really hurt.

Maybe because it's my first love, I never even try to think of a life without him, and I can't imagine myself falling in love with someone else. I've always been a believer of fairytales.

I have to wake up now. Sacrifices have to be made if I want to be happy.

It'll be hard. They say it takes half the time of the whole relationship duration to recover from it. I hope my friends will help me. If you really are my true friends, please don't ask me questions or remind me of him. I really really want to move on.

Now I just want to enjoy my student life to the fullest! :DDD

I'll be strong. Thanks Kathy and thanks all my friends!!!